Life is a gift...as is love.

As of late, I've been feeling as though I haven't appreciated the gift of life enough. I feel like I've wasted a lot of time, thrown away far too many opportunities and overall made a "mess" of my personal situation.

I don't yearn for a time machine...there isn't even one particular "point" in my history of which I'd want to return to. I would however love to have an "alternate timeline" or "parallel universe" viewing device. I'd love to know how different choices I COULD have made may have led me to either a better (or maybe worse) situation than I'm in as of current.

Of course if one particular timeline led me to a better parallel reality than I'm in presently, I'd need a "parallel universe transport" device...

I do realize it's never to late to improve or change - so I'm doing my best to make my life, circumstance and being better than it presently is. I suppose I shouldn't complain too much, I know my life is better than many people's. I'll always be an over-under achiever I suppose.

I hope at some point I have someone to walk this journey hand in hand with. I'm ready to "pair up" again - but "stubborn me" is only open to pairing up with one particular person. I'm keeping the faith.